aku ini entah apa
seperti remaja tanggung bingung mencari
seperti angin yang kadang berputar kadang menerjang
dan sepi yang enggan diterjemahkan

aku ini entah kenapa
kenapa sanggup bertahan
kenapa masih tak bergeming
diantara sepi yang kian mencekam

terlalu lama tak memberi nada pada telinga
syair pada relung hati
binar cahaya pada mata
serta peluk dan cium pada nurani terdalam
terlalu lama sendiri

Did you see the Harry Potter movie this weekend?  Are you going to read the new book?

Yes I went to the 21 studio and see the Harry Potter, the Order of the Phoenix last weekend. And I always think that the book is more interesting, there's always one or two scenes that missing in the movie version... and things doesn't seem like the way I imagine it when I read the book, well it can be better or just different.

For an example, I don't really imagine the goblet of fire, is something like that goblet of fire in the movie. Or Ginny Weasley face, or how Luna look like... or just how Harry Potter spelling his magic words... something like that...

And yes I'm looking forward the read the book, after Sirius and Dombledore died ... what would happen, and yes I would like to see the next movie again just wondering how things exactly look like...

Show us you craziest or funniest self portrait.
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Ugly me

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Friendster Horoscope for March 22, 2007

Libra (Sep 23 - Oct 22)

The Bottom Line

Your heavy mood can be lightened by facing your troubles head on.

In Detail

As illogical as it sounds, your heavy mood can be lightened by heavy thoughts. If you face whatever is troubling you and process it with as much honesty as you can, your worries will eventually fade away to nothing. But if you ignore the fact that something is wrong in your life, the problem will never be resolved! It will stick around, waiting to get some of your attention -- and it can wait forever if need be. Think things through today, and you'll feel better tomorrow.

Percaya nggak percaya sama horoscope, sometime I just need an advise (or slap on my face.. or whatever..) just like that one above...

This is one of my new year resolution. Bebas utang kartu kredit. :D Aku cuma punya satu kartu kredit dan itu sudah cukup bikin tidur nggak nyenyak, hubungan yang tidak sehat dengan pacar, dan kecenderungan menyalahkan diri sendiri... so it's feel grrreaat when read the "tagihan" with Rp. 0,- payment...

TagihanNol

It's not like I'm not gonna use the credit card no more... I will still using it for a good reason. Nonton di 21 Pay One for Two contohnya... hahah gila itu membantu banget, bayar Rp. 25.000,- buat berdua. Nonton tiap weekend pun (asumsi ada 4 kali weekend tiap bulan) tagihan per bulan mungkin cuma Rp. 100.000,- Dan yang paling penting kalo make, harus punya planning gimana bayarnya. Dan satu aja udah cukup deh... Mending miskin aja daripada keliatan kaya tapi punya utang numpuk. Capek.

Oh adding to my grrreaatt feeling, when in the same time, the salary is increasing, the client love your job, compliment and bonus also added ... :) I'm very confident with my self right now ... haha can't help my self of being sedikit narsis jadinya ... gimana dunk... ??? Owwh I need help...

Who was your first celebrity crush?
Submitted by Glory.

HanginTough

NKOTB ... this is the first name come up in my mind... haha,  I like Jordan Knight mostly.. but Joey McIntyre was very cute at that time (when I was a teenage).. well I think he is a handsome man now... when I read their wiki page damn it make me feel sooo old.. see their clothes, the hair do... hihihi but yes I used to dream to see them in flesh..

Hari Sabtu kemarin nonton Fear Factor lagi setelah lama acara itu nggak nongol di TV Indonesia. Nggak tau apa di NBC juga memang lagi nggak berproduksi juga.

Anyway, tantangan babak keduanya nggak pake acara makan ala Fear Factor seperti biasanya, tapi kali ini tantangan untuk potong rambut, tapi pilihannya cuma beberapa, gundul, mohawk, petak-petak, trus kayak orang botak (rambutnya hanya sisa di atas kuping) trus apalagi yah... ya pokoknya apapun pilihannya, nggak ada yang bagus... mungkin mending langsung plontos aja.. huehuehu ternyata dari 3 pasangan yang ikut babak ini, cuma 1 yang behasil lolos dan langsung mengantongi US$ 25.000

Berat banget buat cewe-cewe itu motong rambut kek gitu, sayang banget mungkin, kan kata pepatah rambut adalah mahkota ? heuheu ... yang sanggup potong rambut pun pake acara nangis pas liad akhir potongan rambutnya... keliatan banget beraaaaaaaatt potong rambutnya... well sementara yang cowok-cowok lebih enteng dan nggak keberatan sama sekali keliatannya.. mungkin karena buat mereka sah-sah aja kalo gundul, nggak tabu, nggak jelek, nggak aneh.

Kalo aku mungkin nggak keberatan juga sih, dulu jaman kuliah pun juga pernah potong pendek sekali tinggal berapa cm aja panjangnya, dan hasilnya jadi sering dipanggil mas sama orang-orang yang nggak ngerti (misal. kondektur bis, tukang koran, pedagang kaki lima Malioboro) hahaha.. Ya tapi sekarang sih kalo suruh potong pendek begitu tanpa alasan yang bagus (misal. US$ 25.000 :P) juga males lah ... lebih seneng rambut panjang. ;)

Yayy... I'm soo glad that my CRT monitor turn to be okay. Setelah mengorbankan makan siang hari ini berjemur dan menjemur monitor di halaman kost-an... (which is sebenernya nggak dapet panas yang aku inginkan, tetep aja mendung). Ternyata sudah cukup untuk mengeringkan monitorku yang kecipratan (kalo nggak mau dibilang keguyur) air hujan akibat bocornya atap kamarku..

Tapiii ternyata yang menjadi korban justru keyboard-nya. Nggak mau nyala lagi. Kayaknya sih dia (si keyboard) juga keguyur air... tapi karena shock duluan liat monitor-nya, si keyboard ini nggak tak perhatikan... maap ya keyboard... habis kan keyboard lebih murah jadi kalo rusak lebih gampang belinya. Tapi misal hari minggu itu aku juga perhatian sama si keyboard mestinya hari ini juga kering dan nggak perlu beli baru... dasar si bego, pilih kasih.

Akhir bulan kemarin, kita sempat nonton Babel. Well setelah banyak baca blog yang merekomendasikan film itu, rasanya pingin juga nonton. Apalagi ternyata film ini memenangkan Global Globe Awards. Padahal sih nggak biasanya kita nonton film yang bisa disebut serius begini.

Ya, film nya memang unik. Kita seperti disuguhi banyak cerita di berbagai belahan dunia, tidak mengenal satu sama lain dan tidak pula behubungan tapi ternyata ada satu garis merah yang membangun keseluruhan film menjadi satu cerita yang menyatu.

Tapi sejujurnya ada yang mengganggu pikiranku pas film nya selesai. Satu, adegan polisi Maroko waktu mereka mo nangkap Yussef, ayahnya, dan saudara lelakinya... kenapa ya mereka langsung menembak? Bukan kan aturannya memperkenalkan diri dulu, warning, trus kalo nggak nurut baru nembak. Mestinya kan begini ya..

"Police... freeze!!" Baru bang..bang!! Itu juga kalo nggak nurut. Apa memang di Maroko begitu?? Langsung main tembak?? Atau karena jaraknya jauh jadi kalopun teriak, mereka nggak bakal denger?

Terus satu lagi adegan masturbasi itu... nggak tau deh... maksudnya buat joke kali ya? Tapi kok keknya nggak penting gitu lho, agak-agak aneh... Lagian Yussef itu brapa tahun sih??

Oowh well, anyway besoknya adalah ulang tahun Thomas. And we planned to do little celebration at home, just the two of us. Sebnernya sih bingung juga mo ngapain, habis selain tanggal tua kita juga udah rada bosen sama ulang tahun... hahha udah tua gitu lho...

All I wishes for him is just him to be much wiser, and in the end we'll have a meaningful relationship, hubungan yang semakin dewasa seiring kita juga dewasa, yang saling menghormati, saling menjaga, lebih terbuka, dan bisa saling percaya.

Oowh anyway... I think we've already accomplish the number one of the year 2007 resolutions (which is bebas utang kartu kredit)... it's feel great... right hun!?? :)

Yesterday I met the newly wed couple Killy and Vita at Plaza Ambarukmo, when I left home Jogja was on hot weather, the sun shine clearly and everything, I was sweating when I met those guys. Actually we planned to see the movie at 21 theater at 3pm so Thomas can go with us (as he was having important thing to do till 3pm). But then Killy texted me that they were already at the theater and going to see the movie at 12:30.. so I went alone to the Plaza, I thought Thomas and I could see the movie anytime we want.. we live in Jogja, but Killy and his wive they just on vacation… I thought I could bought them the tickets as I have discount from BCA Card, pay one for two… let them watch the movie while I will have time for my self.. I could go for window shopping.. I could jump around the mall, I could dance on the floor.. huehue nooo.. And after that I will wait for Thomas and having a nice dinner.

Well that was only a plan. It’s almost come true, accept for the unpredictable rain… a heavy rain I suppose… When I finally get tired dance and jump around the mall for window shopping of course (no money!).. I decide to go home and wait Thomas there, and I got “Snake on the Plane” cd to watch. Aaand there was a crowded at the Plaza’s entrance, it’s heavy rain and the people wait at the entrance for it to stop. Aarrghh… I always bring a small umbrella on my bag when it comes to rain season like this, but it was going to useless, the rain was soo heavy.. the wind will blow me away…

It was 2pm when the rain stop (well almost).. bringing a mild and cool air.. and I went home and thinking about my cozy bed, lying there cuddling with my sleeping partners the pillow and si embek… watching the cd.. oowh heaven..

But it was complete hell, when I’m enter my room. Waters everywhere… the carpet was wet, books, and the worse… my monitor… %@&$%@8… all wet. Oh my god… I didn’t know what to do first… what should I save first… can I still save those things… unplugged the electricity cables was the first thing I do… but then I was standing in the door.. and feel hopeless… Thanks God Elen and Ary was coming and they were shocking as I do, but then they help me moving my things one by one out of the wet room… and move it to empty room. TV saved, dispenser saved, CPU saved, bed.. almost unsaved, books okay… 10 Cakram magazine unsaved… another 7 Cakram mags saved… But the computer’s monitor is wet and until now I don’t know if it going to saved or not… I better wait till it dry right? Errghh I need my monitor… I can’t work without it… and it’s not a right time… I got a lot of works to do

Thomas was coming at 4pm (?) He helped me cleaning the messed up room.. and moving the heavy wooden cabinet. My room is still a mess right now… and my body is in pain… I am so tired.. I can’t sleep tight because of cold weather cold floor and don’t have carpet.. And I started to think about heavy flood in Jakarta, I can’t imagine how they going through the flood… my “small flood” it’s like nothing compare with them… and I am this tired…

Anyway I need tips about wet CRT… hopefully it’s going to be ok.